33 weeks 4 days pregnant - growth scan

Well my regular doctor was back from her holiday yesterday and so she was the one who scanned me.  (I knew not to get excited about the last scan.)  She put the baby back on the original growth curve.  The BPD (head diameter) on the 3rd percentile along with the femur.  The tummy circumference just a bit above and the head on about the 40 line.  (So baby has a big head by comparison to other body parts not other babies.)

She also measured the short bones (lower leg and arm) and I wish I hadnt seen.  Some were showing at approximately 29 weeks.  She said not to worry about these (how do I do that?) as the baby is at such a funny angle she couldnt get good measurements.  The babies head is down in my pelvis and his body is twisted, in an L shape, so that his bottom is by my left hip.

I was contemplating going back to work but after the scan results I just want to put my head down and stay close to home.  Can I say this?  Maybe I will come back and delete it later but Im ashamed - that Ive done this and that my baby may not be normally formed.  I dont want to face people and pretend everything is okay nor do I want to explain every detail.  If there is something wrong I dont know how I will cope. But for now I dont want to see people - I want to be alone and get my head around it by myself.

So thats it.  One more scan in two weeks when I will be 35 + 4 and just 2 weeks + after that I should be induced. 

I have begun to experience terrible swelling in my hands - I wake up and they are painful and like big fat sausages.  I also have one swollen ankle - just one mind. 

The leakage problem has raised its head again.  My fluid is within normal but low.  I will have to go in today and have an internal.  All those weeks ago (with my original consultant) I raised the same issue as I can feel something opening and liquid passing on occasions - now I dont know what it is.  It could be urine (my bladder was never so good after the myomectomy (fibroid removal when they cut my bladder), or amniotic fluid or simply discharge.  My knickers are wet everyday.  I felt a bubble of liquid passing yesterday morning, changed my underwear and by the time I was at the hospital for my appointment I was wet again.  It doesnt sound like fluid but I think I should try and find out what it is.

Ooh the ups and downs.

My bump is still small but it is visable now.  I actually was offered a seat on the tube yesterday!  What a kind man.  I was tired and feeling leaky coming back from my scan and was ever so grateful.  It must mean that I now look pregnant and not just fat.  Dont get me wrong, I love my bump - its so tight (especially in the morning).  It feels like a miracle in itself.  That Ive actually got one.  I will miss it when its gone.

Symtoms = swollen ankle and hands, raised bp, baby moving/squirming, bleeding gums

31 weeks and 4 days pregnant - growth scan

Well, today I had a growth scan.  It was not at the FMU (fetal medicine unit) but rather where all the other ladies get scanned.  I always wanted to progress to that unit as that would mean my pregnancy was progressing normally.

The doctor that has been seeing me in the FMU is on holiday so thats why I was seen in the other unit.  Anyway, I dont know what to make of it but she measured the femur at 60mm, an increase of 15mm??  That also now plonks the femur on the 50% line - normal.  In fact everything has grown.  Im so untrusting - are these really the correct measurments this time?  Has my baby had a growth spurt?  Is everything gong to be okay?

The estimated weight is now 3lb 9.1 oz.  Previously I was struggling to get to 2lbs. 

She measured everything 9 or 10 times.  Checked and double checked.

I dont trust anyone and thats the truth.

The sonographer is 41 and confided that she is about to try ivf.  She wanted to hear about my story and I shared the things I have learnt along the way.  There are so many of us out there.

It feels liike a good day - but Im scared of being happy and accepting and believing, after all this upset, that everything will be okay.  I pray it will be.  Im going to start my knitting back up today it feels like a baby will be born.

Negatively DH has been made redundant -but thats a worry for another day.  Tomorrow I have another hospital appointment - 1230 they are going to set me up with my own blood pressure machine and take it home, 1600 diabetic clinic and 1900 tour of the maternity facilities.

Thank you for the lovely lady who commented on my blog. I have wondered at times if anyone was reading and if it would be helpful to anyone. 

Symptoms = baby moving, sickness, bleeding gums, wobbly on my feet at times

29 weeks 5 days pregnant - short femur

Well, I had my scan yessterday and the femur is now measuring below the range of normal.  The measurements are on a chart which show the lowest 3rd percentile and the highest 90 percentile of normal.  All the way along the doctors have said 'its within normal range' so dont worry and now it is outside the doctor yesterday was still encouraging me to think of it as normal.  I just dont get it.

Of course it could mean many things.  What it definately means is that the femur is not growing at the same rate as the rest of the baby.  The first measurement the doctor took it was about 45mm and sat about a cm below the lowest 3rd percentile.  She measured it lots of times after that until it occupies its current position, just below the line.  She manage to make it 49mm which is at least 3 weeks behind.  Again everything I hear and read says if its one or two weeks behind thats okay.  That is a measurement of approximately a 26 week old baby I am just shy of 30 weeks. 

I have to go to the diabetes clinic today and will work hard to speak to the consultant. 

I have another scan in 2 weeks and then one 2 weeks after that.  What are we waiting for?  Or perhaps they really just dont know? 

Symptoms: stress, baby moving, gums still bleeding but less intense, food still doesnt taste good